Everyone use to say to me that I forget everything often. I myself have noted me forgetting some important things. To say some, forgetting Tiffin carrier in office, forgetting mobile in home, forgetting to send an important mail, forgetting an important meeting etc.,
This terrible memory of mine has given me lots of pain and frustration at most of the occasions in my life. But to my surprise, a moment in my life I felt that this character of mine is God’s gift and this is there with every other human being too…
And the moment was the time of my uncle’s death………….
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On a fine day, I was in the office at 12, the time at my shift starts in my office. I got a call from home. My mom uttered crying, that my Uncle was serious and we need to start immediately. My uncle was suffering from a 3rd level cancer. Hearing that, I took leave and started immediately and on our way to our home town, I came to know that my uncle is no more……. Starting from that moment, I have to manage my mom and my three sisters who accompanied me to my home town. No one among them knows this, but only me….My mind was full of pressure and worries and of course the past memories of my uncle being with me. He is the man i loved the most among all my relatives.
We landed there, and watched my uncle lying……
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Don’t want to describe the scene anymore…. It’s … horrible… At that stage I watched my cousin, Uncles 17 year old son (My uncle survived by his wife, a son and a 13 year old daughter). The kid was with no hope sitting on a chair. From the moment I saw him, I was with him until his father’s final march.
By 1 ‘O clock in the afternoon everything was over. After finishing the last rites, we both along with other relatives, returned home. We should not step into the home until we take a bath. Hence, we waited at the rear side of the home.
My mom came and gave us the dresses that we need to wear after taking bath. We both put those clothes on our shoulders. Suddenly I thought something is missing from my shoulder…..
From that bunch of cloths, my underwear fell down and that too, it fell into garbage, adjacent to the compound. My cousin looked at me and I looked at him.
“It’s a new one” I said, and he replied with a smile in the typical Marthandam slang, “athu inni kittathu, maranthudu, kavalaipadathe” (To translate - You won’t get that, forget it, Stop worrying)
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Silence…..
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A big silence… not outside….
But in me…. inside my mind…
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Silence in my mind for few seconds… Thought of god … and thought of the words that this young teenage kid utter from just 30 min after cremating his father’s body…. “You won’t get that, forget it, and stop worrying”….
I wondered, and cherished at that moment that my character of forgetting is useful… to its greater extent…
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Keeping this in mind I thought of predicting the future of this universe. Hmmm…..?? :) (Naan thirunthavee maaten...:)). What will happen when every one of us forgets each other’s sins and worries and most importantly our past? What will happen to us and to all the lives surrounding us, if we have an ability to forget the selected aspects which we don’t want to remember?
Needs greater concentration and desire in me to think and write in that perspective….. Give me some time…… :)
Life is beautiful…. And divine is wonderful…. Enjoy it…. :)
